The Battle to Go Continues

Some very important things have been happening over these past few days that have me on going on this mission trip to Santa Cruz this summer. I believe that God has called me to become a nurse in order to bring Him glory. I also believe that God wants me to bring Him glory in Santa Cruz, CA this summer.

God has been teaching me to be patient and submit fully to His will and His timing. I got accepted into nursing school for this coming fall, so I thought it would be smooth sailing from here. However, God had different plans for me. I have had a rough semester with Microbiology as well with my tests in Intro to Nursing. Needless to say that I didn't do well enough to pass either of the classes. 

Now comes the decision. Do I continue with what I want more than anything and not go to Santa Cruz, or do I postpone Nursing School for another year and fully submit to God's will. 

After many tears, prayers and struggles within my heart, I went into the SWOSU School of Nursing and signed the papers saying I would not be attending the school of nursing this fall. 

I believe that God allowed this to happen to show me that I am not in control of these things in my life. They are created by Him and for Him, not me. Jeremiah 29:11 says that He knows the plans for us. As much as it hurts to make this decision to wait, I know that He has control of these situations and He will bring glory to Himself no matter what. 

The devil is doing everything in his "power" to keep me from going to Santa Cruz this summer, and honestly, a year ago, he may have actually won this battle. But God has been teaching me and growing me this year, through prayer, His Word, Campus Crusade for Christ, and all of my new friends at SWOSU. I am so thankful that God has taught me so much about putting my full faith in Him. He has the ultimate control and He will stomp Satan out of these situations when I trust in him.

Jeremiah 29:11-13

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ¹² Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. ¹³ You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

Colossians 1:9-12

 ⁹ For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you. We continually ask God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all the wisdom and understanding that the Spirit gives,^[a] 10 so that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, ¹¹ being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, ¹² and giving joyful thanks to the Father, who has qualified you^[b] to share in the inheritance of his holy people in the kingdom of light.