Blessed Beyond Measure!

As you know from my previous post, I prayed to God when I submitted my application "It's your will, God."

 

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10)

Still, being my worrisome self, I struggled with the thoughts that I may not be able to raise enough money. I knew that if it was truly God's will that He would provide the funds for me to go. Within the first week of me sending out my support letters, I have raised nearly a third of my intended goal of $4500! God is truly blowing my mind with the support I am gaining from others. It is so amazing to see how people have faith that God will use me in Santa Cruz this summer. Thank you so much for all of the support that you have given me so far! I am extremely touched that you believe in me and that God really wants to use me. 

No matter what  broken state or situation we might be in, God uses us! That is so AMAZING! I know that God doesn't have to use us. He can do all of His work on His own, but He delights upon us and uses us when we answer His call to go! I am so blessed that God will use me for His perfect will!! I just can't stop smiling because of God's great love! 

Acts 1:8 ⁸ But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.”

God blesses us in so many ways! Thank you for being apart of "Project 4,500!" 

Battle to Go- The Beginning

I didn't have a reason to even think about going anywhere this summer, or so I thought. I am in the middle of applying for Nursing school, trying to figure things out, and a boyfriend I want to see. God totally blew my mind at Winter Conference. He said, I want you to sacrifice your summer for me. My thoughts, "I'm not good enough to go" and "I have way too much on my mind to even begin thinking about this." After a conversation with Heather, a Cru leader, I realized that God doesn't call us to go because we are perfect. He calls us in  our current state, a broken mess or perfect and He can use us despite our flaws. By the end of Winter Conference my attitude became, "I have to go!" I was so excited that as soon as I got home from Dallas, I began the application process! 

This application was no ordinary application. It was a beast that pries into all aspects of your life and spiritual life, EVERY nook and cranny. There is no way that the people who read my application couldn't see how messy my life was. I got super nervous before I submitted it, so I prayed, "It's your will God." I hit submit and that was the end of it. 

Secretly, I was praying that they would somehow look over my application and I could go on with my original plan, to stay home and work and get ready for nursing school in the fall. However, while battling with the flu, I got a phone call from one of the leaders for the project and I had been accepted! I was once again flooded with the emotions of being both selfish and wanting to do God's will. I was almost sick to my stomach at this battle to go. 

Being the "Type A" personality I am, I made a big list on my big white board of reasons to go and to not go. In the end, God wins (like always) and I realize I have to go. A week later, I got all of my support letters ready to go and now the journey begins!

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I will keep you updated as things happen!